There we have it, folks, this girl has officially finished uni! Well, granted I could’ve made a colossal fail out of my exams and have to come back this summer to retake, but for all intents and purposes, I’ve finished.
I very quickly got my head around the idea that I will no longer be going into uni ever again. But, what I’m having a harder time wrapping my head around is that I’m no longer a student. Don’t get me wrong, I was ready for my fourth and final year to be over with cos towards the end, it definitely did drag. But, what I wasn’t expecting was it to just fizzle out and before I knew it, it was all over with.
The reality is that I’ve essentially been in some sort of education for the past 17 years or so and from almost one day to the next, I’ve been stripped of that ‘pupil/student’ title. One of my first thoughts after my last exam was ‘Oh, I’m unemployed’ which was quite the blow to my post-exam high.
The word ‘unemployed’ comes with some negative connotations, so I’m not gonna be using that word anymore, I don’t like it. From now on, I’m going to refer to myself as being on a break. A gap in time that lies between the end of uni and the next big phase, where my next title will come from.
Now, I take these things with a pinch of salt, but I’ve been reading more into my horoscope recently. One that I particularly enjoyed was from @sistersvillage Instagram which said, Aquariuses are future orientated and always planning and thinking about what next to come. I read this and was like ‘yes so true’ because, for the past couple of months (who am I kidding, my entire life), a lot of my attention has been on the next step.
Cos, I mean there’s a lot of big changes on the horizon. Rich and I have a huge trip planned, we’ve got to find a place to live, oh and I’m going to start my career. But now that uni has come to an end, I more or less haven’t thought about any of it. It’s not that I’m not excited about it, believe me, I am. It’s just that for the first time in forever, I’ve been enjoying doing ‘nothing’. I figured that I have all the time in the world (well, until money runs out, so you know, not that long), to think about what I want to do with this life, so why not chillax for a sec?!
HOWEVER, I am prone to comparing myself to others and what they’re doing. When I catch myself doing this I think “Comparison is the thief of joy” to try and snap myself out of it. I feel like comparison could be a whole blog post within itself but in essence – people’s paths post-grad are going to look different to yours and there’s nothing wrong with that. Even if some people look like they have it totally figured out, I can almost guarantee they’re scrambling as much as you are. So in the meantime:
So, when I say I’ve been doing ‘nothing’, that’s not entirely true. Here’s a couple of things I’ve been up to whilst on my break:
- Cleaned my house head to toe
- Cleaned my mum’s kitchen head to toe
- Read a book
- Unsubscribed to a bunch of email lists
- Binged the entire series of Shitts Creek
- Drank A LOT of wine
- Carrying on with my internship
I know, there’s some pretty riveting stuff up there. So yeah, right now, I’m not up to much and I love it. And I want you, who may be worrying about the next step, to know it’s ok to not have a plan and to enjoy this in-between space whilst you still can.